weeeeeeee so i've become addicted to making tiny felt plushies.

i believe i will begin selling them for $1-$1.50.
unfortunately, they will only be sold to people i can get to in person.
i shall post pictures of them soon.

my first practice batch seems to have worked out really well.
the next ones (or ones people want) will come with a keyring for easy placement on whatever the owner wishes.

so far, i've made a ghost, a piece of toast, a sunny side up egg, an orange, a circle with a paw print, an circle with a heart, a pancake, a drop of blood, a flame, and.. im sure something else... but i cant remember. ahaha.

what's new.
paper on dumpster diving going really well.
first draft is due tomorrow. yay me.

in other news, i am seriously bored. seriously. its always the same. new people everywhere. i think itll be different but no, it repeats. events always repeat. is that what we're doomed to do? and to be? just a big loop of the same things no matter who we are? I don't want to be apart of that. It's absolutely disgusting to me.

I thought things would be a little different at least, what with me being in a new situation, and new location. supposedly a new chapter in my life. it's just looping. it makes me think hey crimsy is falling back into one of those depression ruts. i don't think it's just messed up neurotransmitters anymore. I think it's my surroundings and how i can't take the same thing over and over. the different meds change things a little bit. but then situations end up the same and i go relapsing. what the helll.

so i think my friends may see scarce of me this next week. i need some alone time from.. people. nothing personal i suppose. just.. people in general. i've had enough.

yay it's october!
i should fit my vamp fangs onto my teeth and prepare to bite--i mean.. show them off. yes. hahaha. i bought a decorative skull thing at walgreens the other day. it's pretty close to actual size. i've named him Yorick. Shakespeare fans should be laughing. bwaha, yes im a dork. what's more is that I'm a nerdy dork. brilliant i know.

-dance dance-
im kind of hyper right now. i'm going to attribute it to lack of sleep last night.

also, DAMN the insurance company. they need all this proof that i'm a registered full time student here at the uni, and the deadline is the end of this month. it's not one piece of evidence. it's like three. really? now i gotta figure that out and hope that the USPS doesn't fuck me over timeline wise. rawr.

the QSU meeting on thursday was pretty cool. it was a community mixer, which meant that it wasn't just the campus group people-it actually included people from a bunch of organizations like the Human Rights Campaign, Reno Out mag, La Bussola art place thing here, and ... a lot of others which i cant rememeber now. Oh, there was also the people from the local high school's GSA. it was nice. although i was reminded of how shoddy my mingling skills are. haha.

bleargghh. my philosophy of arts exam yesterday went kind of iffy. i hope my essay made sense, cause it was slightly more disorganized than how i would have liked it to end up. in any case, eeeeeee. yep yep.

til next time :]

alrrrrrrighty.
yeah.

Deutschkursssss. german class is fun. i can still hardly believe that there was no russian course offered this semester, but i'm dealing pretty well. i must say, it will be really cool to be able to speak 4 languages. .. if i retain my spanish that is. my last class for spanish was.. 2-3 years ago. que lastima. anyways. .. i dunno how to put accented letters in here without copy + pasting. damn. i WILL add russian. making that 5 languages. muahaha.

my roommate is over there -points- doing her paper. its all quiet in here. .. well, i have my ipod on and my headphones in, so im not sure about the sound levels in the room specifically, but its relaxed. i had a mild panic attack this morning after philosophy class, and just about an hour or so ago i had to suddenly ditch my friends and run back to my room (running was prolly a bad idea) to get my inhaler cause i was starting to have shoddy breathing ability.

in other newsssss. STOCK MARKET. ahah.. down 777? well. hope daddy didnt lose everything.

lalala.
OH. i dumpstered a peach the other day.
I wasn't feeling well. or myself. so i decided to take a 'walk'. its all dark outside, so two of my friends decide it would also be fun to join me. im wandering around, taking random paths, climbing school buildings.. and looking in trashcans/dumpsters. i start to become skeptical that i'd find anything that night. there was another guy wandering around the trashcans, and the custodians had cleared a lot of them. when i came upon this random can, and i poke at stuff. THERE WAS A PEACH! a perfectly good, ripe peach just chillin. so that was sort of my dinner. i rinsed it off with some random sprinkler water and tore it in half, ate it. didnt eat the skin though. haha. got one friend to eat some. she was enjoying it. but my other friend was like. EEEE. and yeah. that totally cheered me up. hopefully they'll think twice about the 'trash' around them. Usually i don't tell my friends that i dive or take random food/steal random food, but im like what the hell. they can deal with it. wooot.

mhmm. so .. i think i might go lay down now because im not feeling too good upstairs. dunno if anything was triggery but im a little off. again.

-wave-

WOW
again.

i really need to get on here regularly.

things to get out of the way:
i'm here, i'm queer, and.. i'm at university of reno?
something like that. so yeah, i'm a month or so into my first college semester or fun. Majoring in, you guessed it. Psychology. so really, why do i have to take calculus. again? AHGKAHKA. yeah. not my favorite class. i am enjoying abnormal psych 441. it makes me absolutely giddy. im also quite fond of my english class. i am writing my big paper thing on dumpster diving/freeganism, and the whole corporate system, and hyperconsumerism. .. im not sure if that last one is a word. maybe its overconsumption. .. whatever. im writing on it, and im happy about it.

im a part of the queer student union here at UNR. some awesome people are in it, and im looking forward to getting more involved.

there's also a new club apparently, Reno Revolutionaries. for really really left wing people. and i think i should fit right in. we just need more ppl to get it to start up.

my dorm room is small, but comfy. the beds are hella high. and i have a community bathroom. oh the joys of college life.

aside from that, im still totally on medication, and i found out a few weeks ago that my meds are also used to treat ocd in some people. that would explain why i get more nervous about my ocd when i stop taking it. which i do often. yeah, i dunno.

yep yep. its wonderful weather here, away from las vegas. cant wait for the snow to begin and the visible breaths to blow.

perhaps ill minor in sociology. or some art form. or even english.

ponder ponder ponder.

life is boring me. and i need to find more things to do.
everyone is so materialistic. ive been bred to be materialistic. to commemorate my life and experiences on flimsy papers with color-what people call photos. why? im here, im out to experience life like it is meant to be. and ill be the one to document it inside. because in the end, im all i have, and im all that really matters.

good night, friends.