so yeah.
back again.
Monday night, Tegan and Sara at the LA Orpheum. it was magickal. i seriously cant believe i got to go. all the way to LA, to see them. it was fun and dandy and i was like.. . brain joy overloading the whole time. my one regret is that i didnt stay after the show to meet them. oh well. theres always next time.

i have pictures n vids on my camera and my phone. new merch. oh joy. i cant even put into words how happy i am for being able to go.
-gushes happy feelings-

ehem.

friday. i get to go to arizona for Bands of America. i hope we make finals. and place higher than last years finals. thatd make my senior year of band that much cooler.

also, i seem to be asthmatic. or at least.. i have some lung issues. because nearly keeling over after one lap around the track. .. well .. it never happened before and i was wheezing for a good hour after that.. i need a doc appointment...
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less joyful matters:

this wont leave me.

"Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return."

i seem to be reeling in the mental state category. people are dumb.. yet .. why do i care for those certain few who can make me beyond miserable? .. whatever. im just fed up with myself for liking people i guess. yeah. thats it.... . .